Posted by Dhaevor on April 9, 2000 at 03:28:10:
Apologies first of all to Altrael and Nicias, who were there when I deleted. How do you roleplay deleting a character who'd rather flay himself with a wooden spoon than commit suicide? The answer? Badly.
Dhaevor was a character I'd enjoyed immensely and was proud of overall for the majority of his life. Over the course of the past week or so, I've just felt entirely out of touch with the character and his role. Looking over my log of the first ever "Successful Rager Hell Trip" I realized that I'd basically abandoned any semblance of a role for the entire thing. As a player, I got far, far too caught up in the Hell thing, and I worry that I may have ruined the experience for some of the people I was leading, both in terms of quest spoilers and glossing over the richness of the area in a "run from point A to point B" approach, much as Savryn was considered to have done.
Scarabaeus, I got the idea from what I saw in game that I may have pissed you off, and rightly so.... I apologize. You rather correctly pinpointed the two objects of my greed when you looted my corpse on the 8th. Fair enough.
Other reasons for deleting. Yes, every single person on IRC knew who my past characters were (current characters are not an issue--I have none). Yes, it's my fault for being unable to keep my mouth shut. Yes, I regret it. I got entirely disgusted with the whole thing right around the tenth "When are you going to start inducting berserkers again so you can induct my character, because defenders suck, and you suck for only inducting defenders etc. at nauseum" or "When are you going to induct my applicant, come on man, you know I can play a Rager" query.
Did this affect who I inducted? NO. Did it piss me off and grate on my nerves? Yes. Did I learn my lesson? Yes.
Specific mentions....
Battle as a whole. Damn, you're just a very impressive bunch right now. The overall quality of applicants was simply incredible, and as a result I had much more fun interviewing than as any of my past leaders. I inducted something like 30 people in my time as leader, I think. And out of those 30, I can only think of two inductions that I later came to regret. Absolutely every single other person impressed me. You should all be damned proud of the job you're doing. The upcoming Rites are really going to be something to watch.
BoltThrower, you were a pleasure to deal with. My interview with you was easily one of the more enjoyable experiences I've had in my time playing, and the direct interaction, ongoing, as mortal leader, was also superior to my prior leadership experience. I apologize for not being able to go ahead with the plans we laid... it's not something I could've started and then deleted any time soon thereafter. When it came down to deciding, not wanting to back out of our arrangements was one of two points in the "CON" column, and it almost won out.
Zorszaul, you're great. But everyone tells you that, and your ego doesn't need further enhancement, so I'll leave it at that.
Avendella, wanting to finish our conversation was my second point against deletion. Sorry.
Takashimi, Minalcar, Iolanthe, Ludi, Nicias, Altrael... from oldest to newest, you all impressed me immensely, and the future of the village is in your hands, in one form or another.
I know I forgot a thousand people, but this is too long already. Feel free to e-mail.