Since I've had some time to think about it, and the Immortals locked the thread (ironically deleting my reply to Rogue's comment)....figured I'd just write something short and leave it at that.
I need to take a break from CF, for at least six months (I'd like to forever but we know how rare that is)....mostly because it's not good for me. I get too emotionally attached to my characters and getting worked up over a game like this just isn't worth it. I have a hard time dropping issues with certain people like Rogue or Kanye, and just need to step back and do something else. I'll probably get a bunch of troll responses of "hooray!" but that's just how it goes with me. It's ironic to see myself unable to let go of an issue, when I complain of others who can't just move on - I just need to take my own medicine.
One thing I always expected of the playerbase and of myself was to "leave the baggage out of the game" so to speak - if you've ever played sports, you know the term....if you're having a bad day, have some beef with another player or whatever then just leave it out of the game and keep playing. I can think particularly of a few of my fights with certain people (Gramoak would come to mind) where I really hated the guy but I still left it out of the game. I went ballistic because Opoj didn't do that - he took his beef with me OOC and full-sacced me while he knew I was linkdead. I should just roll with it and move on but it's something I just have a problem doing. It's the equivalent of someone bringing a handgun to a boxing match. It's the same reason I turned kanye/jhyrbian in - taking something OOC and breaking the rules just isn't something you should do...handle it IC. I'm not perfect in that aspect but I'm trying.
The chances of it actually being a denial of service attack is super rare and I can understand that - despite the circumstances of having no problems for months, the timing, the router log, etc...I have a hard time believing "shit happens". I could have even just had accepted a loss in the blood reckoning and if I came back to a corpse...I would have moved on but getting full-sacced, losing my weapon, and then shit-talked IC by a cheater was just too much.
So anyways, saw that some of you enjoyed Ubosh...I had high hopes but I blew it for blowing up. Good luck with the newborn Abernyte (won't be on IRC in #nimbusfans anymore), I'll be in the same boat around August. If you feel like bugging me, just PM me here. I'll post some logs in a bit.
Peace.