As I said, I'm no CF superhero. But I played hard. Sometimes I did well, sometimes I lost horribly. I got frustrated plenty from playing against other skilled players and frequent bad odds, but that kind of challenge actually compelled me to play harder and keep trying. If anything, it kept me in the game longer than I would have stayed otherwise.
As for my PBF, which I can no longer acquire due to my being banned, who cares? Daevryn noted that I deleted one day, after a ridiculous fight with a fiend placed by Malthalia (somewhere around 70+ rounds), and the frustration from that, coupled with the loss of "over-maxed" equipment loss, put me over the edge. I decided to delete and reactivate with nothing, so that I wouldn't focus so much on a couple pieces of gear. According to Daevryn, he never even noticed that I returned.
At one point, I so longed for Imm interaction, that I started insulting Thror-tatted followers until he smited me. I then conversed with him while killing off his little pets as they threw themselves, insanely, against me, Messervy, and the outer guardian.
His response? You've only killed a little more than a dozen of my villagers, and I have never even heard of you until now. That really makes a fella feel like he's made an impact.
I'm sure the people I fought noticed. But apparently no one else did.
