>> You talk about self-preservation, but what is there to preserve that's valuable? What do you see inside that you want to keep? Keep that, and fuck the rest.

I keep everything that is me, but I was also dead inside for a long time and I lost many things that were me. I am reclaiming those, my original parts so to say. Like if Valguarnera wiped the CF areas and then I had to rebuild them from mysql transaction logs. Because its fun to blame Valg.

>> You ask for aid, then dismiss it out of hand because you think you've got it all figured out. Either you have, or you haven't. I have. I know life. I know what's waiting for you when you drop the ego, the self-importance, and the confident facade. It's violent, glorious, and utterly uncaring. You're a speck, just like the rest of us. When you realize that, you'll have taken your first step.

I never asked for aid. I quote myself: "Dont help me, hate me ;)". Also I dont really dismiss stuff, stuff just takes a while to sink in. Like thrown stones sinking to the bottom of a moor on their way to the core.

Perhaps I am a speck, what do I know? Afaik I am what I am; nothing more, nothing less.

I have taken more than my first step, trust me. More like a couple million steps. But there may be many steps left, what do I know? Nothing.

I agree that life should be dark violent and glorious though. You pompous bastard.