>Cancer sucks.

I would note at this point that I've come to accept that eventually I will die. Likely it will be from some form of heart disease/aneurism or cancer. It will, sadly, probably be painful. Oh well.

That being said, I just didn't feel like smoking anymore. Though honestly its not that hard to quit once you're done. I've been out drinking a couple times, it was ok. Only complaint is that I'm crankier than usual for a couple days when changing dosage level. Its pretty diminishing to know that pretty much your entire personality boils down to various chemical levels in your brain.

Whole lives are spent trying to find natural ways to, basically, get high.