I stick my toe in to test the waters and my mom died in a car accident. Rather than pull and Angynn (I think that was who I was when my dad died)
I just got it over with. So part of me thinks I'm cursed, take a break and come back - a family member dies, but only the decent ones. Can't take the
evil ones can they? Really though, it's that I've played CF so much over the years that it encompasses all the major events in my life. That's it right?
I'm not cursed? I figured here was a good place to get that out, anywhere else they'd think I was crazy and take steps. Here you all might think I'm
crazy, might not, but those that do don't give a shit that I am. You guys won't blast my with over-done "concern" and asking if I'm okay. Dude any time
you go to a funeral and speak to the bereaved family find ANYTHING else to say, after about the fifth person TRUST ME they just want to punch you
in the face. Hell no I'm not okay, but I will be so long as people let me grieve in my own way. Hooray community. I knew there was a use for all this.
Wow I feel better, sadly none of you are the ones I wanted to tell that last bit to, but it still helps to let it out.

P.S. I really am crazy, but not in the way people think, and the steps my family and friends would take wouldn't do any good. Know what will?
Scotch, which I am about to pour after posting. Mmmm 6 a.m. and drinking, if it wasn't a "special" occasion people would be on me about that
too. Right now all they'll do is shake their heads, look sad, and quietly whisper to one another. :)