I've watched a lot of people die around me. Most of my family though was cancer ALS or CHF so you got a chance to see it coming. (as I type I'm smoking and drinking too awesome, go me!) A good friend passed last month from cancer, but the car accident thing.. that throws me. The second house out on our property was for her to retire on etc.. She never even got to see it, when I was 15 I promised to buy her a house, I finally did, So I guess I kept my promise even though it didn't really work out, she knew it was hers. I'm just in a weird mood, okay and a little drunk. :) Had to switch to beer, tooexpensive a taste in scotch and I need to not way up in a puddle of my own something. I'm not 20 anymore. *rofl*