To keep is simple: I have a primary care doctor that I see twice a year. Once for regular checkup, once for annual physical. I had said physical less than a month ago. I *intentionally* am open and honest with my doctor on thoughts emotions feelings and things of concern. Per that physical and my DOCTORs reassurance that I am 100% a healthy and functioning , both mentally and physically, adult. Ive had depression issues in the past but that was years and years ago and not only did I make it out but I havent had a single issue since. The very fact that I beat depression once, actually is hugely reassuring, as if I beat it once then I can absolutely do so should I have trouble ever again. Which, as of now, as I lay watching a movie, perfectly relaxed, in the confines on my safe and secure home. Completely sober and about to prepare for a good nights sleep. Ive got a lot to do tomorrow.
No, given the state of the world, Im *not* ok. But also, I sleep like a baby with no issue going to sleep or staying asleep. I have a close relationship with family and friends. People who dont treat me like a concern or talk to me like Im anything other than the person they know, and certainly havent accused me of anything mentally related, nor have these people even hinted at such.
Im not a conspiracy guy. I dont believe in anything without some level of reason to. The simple truth is people arent the closed book they think they are. Often, Im *right* about things that some of you either dont, or arent good enough at CF to understand. Yes, thats a thing. I have noobs saying all kinds of absurd things to me. Each one confident they are right. And wrong all the same. Im aware some of my thoughts on IMM related things sound strange, but I can and will ponder certain scenarios because often I am indeed right about nefarious activity, because it happens all the time.
My thoughts on Trump are my thoughts on trump. I share them because people *should* denounce him. And if you think they are weird, maybe pop on over to Reddit, and look around some. Its thread after thread of similar, if better shared, thoughts. Lots of people in my country are angry.
Finally, I dont know whos reading this post, as in I dont know what bubble or personal relationships you have or care about. Its entirely possible that you might be someone I *dont* want to like me. Or the complete opposite. Still, qhcf is a niche within a sea that is the internet. This community is tiny. None of this matters to anyone in the world at all. Relax, or dont. If you wanna troll, troll. You dont like me ok. You think potty language and strange ways of typing are super weird and off putting, fine, but I try emphasizing words to better improve actual understanding of my intended meaning. When I say basic reading comprehension is really really bad, that is not an insult. It seems to be true. Otherwise stop projecting, someone *else* might actually believe you and do something dangerous.
