is that I enjoy it.

Instead of sex and drugs you could try ferndship.

But to answer the question "What do you do when you see no point in living."

Think about things I care about. At stages where I didn't feel I cared about anything(which I found to be my issue), I just realized I'm too afraid of dying, or at least, if I'm going to die I want to die with some scrap of pride and enjoy the thrill of mass murder before I get shot and die painfully. And then I'd realize I'm not quite ready to go that far, so suffer a little more.

I can say I've thought before it might be nice to just go to sleep and not wake up though. It could even be nice. I imagine it like when you've been awake so long, and are struggling to stay awake because for some reason you have to, but it feels so nice just to give in and sleep, suddenly it's so much more relaxing that it ever has been before. Kind of like how good water tastes when you can't eat or drink anything(and barely water) for an extended period of time.

But as lame as it sounds, here are a few trends I've noticed:
Very depressed people are very selfish.
They don't have enough things to balance out negative feelings.

So the solution, if you really want to feel any better(which part of being depressed is that you don't really feel that you do): get friends you like, and ideally because you like them for them, get hobbies, and exercise even though it's boring, it will directly chemically make you feel better. Hehe.

One thing about being unhappy that makes it hard to do things you know are good for yourself is that it feels self-alienating. Like trying to enjoy something you know you hate. It feels like you're trying to be not you.

Happy's not your style, brah.

But maybe this is just some kind of cosmic justice for you being a deathblow fag.

Oh, one more thing: Some humility goes a long way.

and one mooooore thing:
Watch this series
[video.adultswim.com]

Actually, don't watch that series unless you really want to hate yourself enough to just get it over with.

Also regarding fear of death, I'll quote Woody Allen:
"I'm not afraid of dying, I just don't want to be there when it happens."

Editing again just for the sake of it.



Edited 8 time(s). Last edit at 04/15/2012 02:06PM by RobDarken.