I couldn't commit suicide. Not because I think it's wrong, but because I keep turning to the news, waiting for something amazing to happen that is going to change the course of human history. Advances in science, flight technology, space-faring vehicles and developments in the distant fringe science of time travel, waiting for these things, combined with loosing my stress into my music and lyrics were what kept me going for the longest time.

I'd like to believe we're going to colonize another planet within my lifetime, and I want to see it happen.

At least, that was before. I still want to see all of those things, but now I am happy instead of depressed, and have been for a while now, and have other less wondrous but still amazing things that keep me going. I guess I've also learned to appreciate things that I didn't before.

I can't tell you how to deal with your own stress or depression, I can only advise that you find something that makes you happy and hold onto it. Don't choke it to death, just hold on to it.

There is no sense in a permanent solution to a temporary problem.

And man, if sex would cheer you up and you are lingering on the edge, get a hooker. Or start your own mini-company where you are the director and the star of your own porn movies and advertise on Craigslist - people do that all the time.

Just some thoughts.

"you should probably
kill yourself"
- Artificial